Just as soon as I did the internet transaction, while still on the computer, this immense cloud lifted off me, immense, and it became clear this is my next step. Living in the radiation of a star chamber that concentrates cosmic love wherever I am!!!! Blessing the entire area I live in. It has not arrived yet and yet, no more depression, much more clarity, and an understanding that the overwhelming resentment and anger and deep rejection and separation feelings I have experienced since the first of the year, (made unprecedented commitments on paper for 2006 and the universe is delivering VERY quickly) which swamped me to the extent that I could not stand to see my reflection in the mirror as it showed so clearly that I was filled with disgust and rejection and hatefulness - that this was 'stuff surfacing to be cleansed' and even while it was happening and I saw this, I could NOT end it... it was awful!!!!! And now, it is gone. Gone. In a heartbeat, it vanished when I ordered the Star Chamber. And has remained vanished. Like lifting the veil. Like emerging out of deep thunder cloud into the bright light. For a week, there was is this weird suspension inside me, an emptiness where there was judgment before, seeing how I used this consciousness to interface with the world, assessing and culling and condemning no matter how aware I was of it and how much I wanted out. It is as if a part of my brain and mind had simply STOPPED. As if someone had taken OUT some part and now there is this resounding silence and peace and absence of. I have used the Violet Flame for 17 years and they say just before critical mass, 51% is reached, clearing the entire remaining 'creation' out in one fell swoop, the appearance of the stuff one is cleansing, becomes worse than ever as the core and the deepest and yukkiest part of it is lifted... and so it seems with me. Now I am normalising and re-adjusting to life and society, but still the intense sense of disgust has not returned. I have a profound feeling that the SCR will alter my life in big ways once it is here. Awesome, hm?????